Month: June 2013

Good-bye over-thinking.

download (1)“Good-bye over-thinking brain. I’ve just about had enough of you. Shape up or ship out.

I’ve been meaning to have this conversation with you for a long time now. You just never shut up long enough to let me get a word in edgewise. So here’s the thing.

I’d like you to take a vacation-a long, long vacation. I’m getting exhausted from all the activity in the upper regions of my head. I mean, really, couldn’t you just let some things be? Is it really that important to you that I figure everything out? Will your feelings be crushed if I decide to move on? Are you so insecure you can’t trust the logical, quieter parts of my brain to take over for a while?

You see, I’ve got enough going on in my life without you complicating things, like yesterday when someone said something that kind of caused me to have a knee-jerk reaction. Couldn’t you just have let it be? Was it that crucial that I chewed on that probably very innocent remark for the rest of the day? What are you trying to prove anyway?

That you have all the answers if I just let you run roughshod over me? That somehow you and I will figure out everyone else’s problems if we just think about it often enough? Besides, the Holy Spirit is supposed to be my guide and it says, “Let it be. I’ll take care of it.”

So for now, I’m kicking you out. I know. I know. I won’t let you stay outside in the cold for too long because I’ll end up missing you. After all, you’re not always wrong. It’s good to think about things and when you hold in the reins a little, I do ok.  It’s when you let me gallop wildly that I run into trouble. You see, I’ve never figured out how to keep from jumping from over-thinking to rumination. A disaster for someone like me.

So it’s good-bye for awhile in as many languages as I can find. “Hasta la Vista ,“Despedida”,“Adios”,“Adeus”,“Tchau”, “Até amanhã”, “ah-TAY-amon-YAY”,“Adieu”,“Au Revoir“,”À bientôt”,“À demain”,“Tot weersiens”,“Tot wederom”,“Wederdom”,“Ghoebaai”,“Baa”,“Arriewarie”,“Vaarwel.