This sciatic pain seems to have a life of its own. It’s better, then it’s worse, then it’s better again. Doesn’t seem to be any consistency. It comes and goes at will, like an unwelcome relative.
Until I see the orthopedic specialist in November, I’m really having to think through my activities and pace myself
So I got to thinking, does pain have any value in our lives?
I believe it does.
You notice I didn’t ask if we had to like it.
I certainly don’t. I would just as soon never have a moment’s pain of any kind ever again. It’s getting old. Only a masochistic likes pain. And I’m not a masochistic.
But that all of us will experience pain at some time or another, is for sure. It’s just part of life.
I’m not suggesting that while in the throes of unrelenting pain, we should be looking for the value. I don’t know about you, but I just want it gone.
And I’m not saying we should be grateful for pain.
But sometimes pain is a good sign. I’ve cut back on the medication so until I’m totally on the mend, I want to have a little painful nudge now and then to keep me from doing something stupid.
But I find that pain does has value for me.
1. I have to think through everything I’m doing. That’s important because I need to move, and bend carefully. You don’t know me personally so I need to let you know that I go through life faster than the speed of sound.
Superman has nothing on me.
But the truth is, I go at life faster than I should. My mind is always planning the next project. This is how I’m wired and it took me a long time to quit apologizing for just being me. This is just how I’m wired but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t slow down sometimes.
2. I’ve learned to have to let other people do without my help. That is very hard for me.
For example, I felt bad yesterday when a friend wanted a pallet board removed from one of my many pallets. Ordinarily I would have helped her but I had to tell her I wouldn’t help her. I couldn’t help her at all without great risk to myself. Pain helped me make that decision. (By the way, my friend totally understood. That’s why she’s my friend.)
3. I can spend more time reading. And that’s a good thing. I never take time to read fiction. I’m an incessant reader but it’s almost always non-fiction. But if you’re having to be lying flat, reading is something you can easily do. (You should try knitting while lying on your back.)
4. I have to plan my day. That’s also a good thing because I have a tendency to just go at everything all at once. This way, I have to prioritize, organize, and pace myself so as not to bring on pain by doing too much all at once. Mid-mornings and early afternoons are my sweet spots.
While I would prefer to be my former mobile self, for now that’s not possible.
If you’re dealing with some physical pain, I know what it feels like. There’s been all the foot surgeries and now this. No one knows which one might have caused the other but at this point, I don’t really care.
God doesn’t like our pain anymore than we do. God knows what we’re feeling. He know our limitations. He empathizes with our pain.
It will be exciting to see how he provides., how he equips me to do what I need to do.
And I don’t believe for one minute God brought any of this on to “teach” me anything, even though I know I will learn something from it.
Let me know if any of you out there are dealing with chronic pain and how you manage. Maybe we can help each other.
God bless and I hope you have a good day.