I woke up in the wee hours of the morning one night and couldn’t get back to sleep. When that happens it’s important to handle it the right way.
Insomnia is often a trigger and a symptom of depression. Too many sleepless nights in a row can trigger depression even in someone not so inclined. At the same time, insomnia can be a symptom of depression, so too many nights like that might mean you need to be evaluated by your doctor.
Anyway, when I couldn’t get back sleep within about thirty minutes, I decided to get up and go downstairs to the sofa. I had a passing moment when I almost panicked, worried that depression might be returning. But I only saw the “pit” from a distance. I didn’t get so close I fell in.
I admitted that there was something that was bothering me but I also admitted there was nothing I could do about it. While I hate to feel so helpless, it was almost reassuring. I fell asleep quickly after that.
We do so much better when we realize pain is as much a part of life as is joy. If something ends up hurting me, I’ve learned to admit to the hurt and allow myself to experience it fully. But I refuse to let it make me bitter or mad. If I do the pain will last longer and hurt more. Life is like the weather, sometimes it’s sunny, sometimes it’s cloudy.
We appreciate the sunshine because of the rain.
Besides, rain doesn’t destroy anyone.
God says we should guard our heart. I understand that to mean that we don’t have to deliberately put ourselves in harm’s way and that includes emotional harm. We can let other’s actions and their consequences remain with them. We am only responsible for my own actions.
I think God often “heals” while we’re sleeping.
I’ve experienced some insomnia again for the past two nights. It’s been a difficult few days with someone. I’ve grown weary of “doing good”. I’ve lain awake wondering what else I can do. Am I overlooking something? But God walked me through the quagmire and I fell back asleep after being reminded that Galatians 6:9, (New International Version) says:
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
The verse doesn’t say what the harvest is and I think that the “harvest” may well be unique for each of us. And I don’t think it means we can’t walk away now and then and show ourselves some mercy. In fact, I know God expects us to take care of ourselves until we gain our footing again. a
Jesus always knew when he needed to “retreat”. We should, too.
I believe we serve a very compassionate and merciful God, who understands that sometimes our days are so filled that he waits until those dark, silent hours to speak to us.
If you struggle with insomnia sometimes, perhaps God has awakened you to give you a particular message for that situation or person that caused you to lose sleep.
God bless and I hope you have a good day AND a good night’s rest tonight.