DEPRESSION

How to walk in the woods without a flashlight.

Sometimes I feel, like I’m walking through the woods without a flashlight.

Do you know what I mean?

It’s like sometimes there’s darkness all around.  I hear noises and I wonder. Should I be afraid?  Is something out there ready to pounce? If I had a flashlight I maybe I could beam it at the noises and scare whatever is hiding. But maybe the light would shine so bright I would actually see the monster that is lurking.  And maybe that would be the worst thing that could happen.

What’s worse? Walking in the woods and being afraid of the unknown or being able to put a face on the unknown? I hate ambiguity but sometimes it’s not all bad. I can think of a situation where I’ve decided that it’s best not to know. I already know more than I should and I’m choosing now to know nothing more than what’s already known. Ignorance can sometimes be our best friend.

I hate ambiguity but sometimes it’s not all bad. I can think of a situation where I’ve decided that it’s best for me not to know any more than I already do. I already know more than I wish I did.

Ignorance can sometimes be o ur best friend.

When we know too much, when the woods are no longer a dark forest but individual trees, we can no longer pretend. Once we put a name on what scares us we have to face it. Sometimes that’s exactly what we should do.

Other times we might just choose to recognize it and save the fight for later. The trick is knowing when to do what.

Depression is very much like walking in the woods without a flashlight. We aren’t going to get too far without some sort of light guiding our way.

I’m very tired tonight so for now, I choose to stay in the dark and not know. I hope that makes sense. It makes perfect sense to me.

It makes perfect sense to me.

God bless and I hope you have a good day.