DEPRESSION

How to walk on a tightrope without a net

Thank goodness I don’t ever have to try this.

I don’t like heights anyway and I’m not that sure-footed either.

Right now I do feel like I’m walking on a tightrope. I find myself trying to keep really busy just putting one foot squarely in front of each other on that rope so as not to fall. Fall into what?

walking on a tightrope

For me, it would be depression. If ever there was a time I could slip into the abyss it’s now. As I write this post, I’ve just been over to my mom’s to visit my brother who is still living in her house. I will be selling it to him. I haven’t been over there for over a week. Now, I know why.

It’s too painful. It’s her furniture. Nothing has changed.

Except she isn’t there.

I had no idea it would be so hard to be in the house but it was. I’ve been there before since her death but today was one month since she’s died. I felt my feet slipping a little. I could feel the gravity pulling me down. Then I remembered what I read in Psalm 34:18 this morning.

New International Version
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Are you crushed in spirit? You don’t have to experience the loss of someone you love to be brokenhearted or crushed. It can be the loss of a job, health, a home, dreams, etc.

This verse reassures us that God is especially close to us at these times. And not only is he close; he saves as well. I don’t know how much time there is between the closeness and the saving, but we know for sure that God rescues in time, his time.  Personally, I would like it sooner rather than later but as long as I know I am going to be saved, I’ll hang on.

I believe that the reason I had come to Psalm 34 this morning wasn’t accidental. I believe God knew this was going to be a rough day and he wanted me to have this in my arsenal for the afternoon. In fact, I had prayed specifically this morning, having no inkling why that God would be especially close to me today. And then I read this Psalm which was the next one in line.

(For those of you who don’t know and may want to know,  my regular Bible study routine is a Psalm and a Proverb in consecutive order, then an Old Testament book and a New Testament book. It works for me. )

God never leaves us on our own. He always provides, always rescues.

Psalm 34:18

We just have to believe that. That’s what I’m doing today. I’m believing that God is who he says he is and will do what he says he will do.

I hope you are, too.

God bless and I hope you have a good day.