A few years ago, my husband and I decided to attend his class reunion. You would have thought it was a royal coronation, I was so stressed thinking about what I should wear, how I should wear my hair, what kind of shoes I should wear, etc.
Really, hadn’t I dealt with bigger issues by this stage of life than worrying about the impression I would make? Except for:
I remember thinking, what if someone asks me what I’ve accomplished, what will I answer? Have I done the things I wanted to do? Have I realized some of my dreams?
In many ways I have but not in the way most people would think. Most of my accomplishments don’t involve money, success or celebrity. But in all the ways that matter, I’ve accomplished more than I would have thought possible considering the messed-up, teen-ager I once was.
I have a wonderful husband and a beautiful life.
Anyway, I ended up having a really great time. Met some new people. Had fun dancing. Great conversations, etc.
It wasn’t that I looked great, although I did. 🙂 It was that I decided life was too short to keep giving into my fears.
I am still quite self-conscious. But can I be honest here and not be accused of saying something mean or judgmental when I say what I say next?
I think sometimes it’s not half bad to be a little self-conscious about one’s appearance. It’s not half bad wanting to put one’s best foot forward.
When I see the way people go out in public, unkempt, messy, hair still wet from the shower, looking like they just got out of bed, I’m not too sad that I’m like I am.
Anyway, God bless and I hope you have a good day.