When I started this blog, I always knew that my focus would be faith, and mental health issues, particularly depression/anxiety and how to manage our ever-changing moods better. But let’s face it, it’s hard to write about depression and all the accompanying feelings when it’s a memory, not a current experience.
But there are enough days when IT (that’s what I always called depression) tries to get a foothold that I acutely remember. Plus, I have all my posts. Then, of course, there are the people I know who struggle with this illness and finally, there is all of you.
Before I started blogging I was writing a book about depression. I mean I really worked hard at it. In fact, it’s probably done. But I knew getting it published would probably take years so I felt it was God’s plan that I start a blog and reach out that way.
I often go back and read what I wrote and have yet to disagree with myself. I guess that means I’m either narcissistic or totally delusional. 🙂 But I think it means that I did my homework and faced my depression head-on. That means I didn’t try to call it anything other than what it was and I didn’t lay the blame on anyone else’s doorstop. In fact, it was when I quit blaming others for my low mood that I started to get better.
I often write about how the responsibility for our overall well-being, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual, right on our own shoulders. I hate even writing that because it applies to me and takes away my “cushion” of excuse.
Our moods can fluctuate from day to day and sometimes during the day. This can play havoc on us. Somedays we manage our moods. Somedays, especially if we’re tired and stressed, not so much.
Social scientists have discovered through social experiments that whether or not we like a movie depends on our mood going into the theater. Our moods very often affect our decision-making. When we’re in a low mood we make very different decisions than when we feeling upbeat.
You may or may not feel the Bible is God’s word or has anything to say to you but could you agree the Bible does contain good psychology? And this whole business of how we screw up our own lives is clearly discussed in Romans 7: 14-25: (New living translation.)
14 We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature[d] a slave to the law of sin.
In case you haven’t read it, go to my About page to read my history with depression.
God bless and I hope you have a good day.